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18 January 2005 @ 08:37 pm
Just spent 20 minutes fighting with my father about the divorce, about how my mother has SO much more money than he does and she should lend me the money to get my brakes fixed. How they were really happy together and she ruined all that. How she is living the life he wanted to while he has nothing. I wish they had stayed together, yes, for plenty of selfish reasons, but my mother at least is happy now and I know she wasn't when they were married. I'm sick of being in the middle, I'm sick of them not managing to settle this, I'm sick of not really being an adult who can take care of her own stupid problems.

I hate everything and I wish I was dead. I don't even care enough to friendslock shit anymore. My give-a-damn's busted.
netbyrd on January 19th, 2005 05:18 am (UTC)
Oh man. That sucks. I hope things get better for yoy, because that sounds so stressful to deal with!
Deiter, of the German Popefuckers.: not my dollyalkaloid on January 19th, 2005 04:36 pm (UTC)
Oh, hon. I don't really know what to tell you. The only thing that worked for me was to put some distance between myself and my family, but I'm aware that isn't the most viable option for you right now. :/
The Thing Itself and not the Mythladyrelaynie on January 19th, 2005 07:17 pm (UTC)
You can kill me or delete me if you want, but I have an observation to make.

It sounds to me like your father's the one being "not really an adult who can take care of [his] own stupid problems". Not you. He should not be dumping all that shit on you. But hey, just my opinion (and I realize it's not a particularly helpful one).

I know having to ask for money from people sucks a big one(believe me, I know) but it's just necessary some times, especially when you're young. I know! Just tell him that a funeral costs a hell of a lot more than brakes, and if he doesn't help you pay for them now you'll make sure he'll be the one who has to pay your expenses when you get killed driving a car with brakes that don't work. See how he likes that.

*hugs* I don't know you from Adam, I know, but I can definitely empathize.

Good wishes,