January 18th, 2005



Just spent 20 minutes fighting with my father about the divorce, about how my mother has SO much more money than he does and she should lend me the money to get my brakes fixed. How they were really happy together and she ruined all that. How she is living the life he wanted to while he has nothing. I wish they had stayed together, yes, for plenty of selfish reasons, but my mother at least is happy now and I know she wasn't when they were married. I'm sick of being in the middle, I'm sick of them not managing to settle this, I'm sick of not really being an adult who can take care of her own stupid problems.

I hate everything and I wish I was dead. I don't even care enough to friendslock shit anymore. My give-a-damn's busted.